2004年08月05日

    我以为自己长大了,以为自己已经学会适应了没有你的生活。可是这么多天,在我的心里,居然缺少了一样东西,一种感觉。我说不清那究竟是怎样一种感觉,淡淡的,不过又浓浓的。

    虽然白天的忙碌可以使自己很少的想起你,可一到了晚上,那些所谓想你的自控能力就突然消失了。

    我以为这段时间的我是快乐的,但又有一种说哭就哭出来的感觉。当然我总是克制着自己,不轻易想哭就哭。

    每当我一有时间时,我就会坐在电脑前面,胡乱的打着一些东西。我也不知道为什么,总是喜欢模仿我们曾经在MSN上聊天的情景。我最喜欢打得一段就是最开始:windtalker 说:hello  , yaya 说:hihi~    你记得么?你记得那种感觉么?可能你从来没有在意过这些看起来很平常的话,但这已经成为一种很熟悉,很温馨的感觉驻在了我的心里。我也不知道是怎么回事,总是想起我们最开始在网上一段一段的经历。虽然面对的只是一台机器,可我总希望,或者已经感觉得到网络另一端的你。

    真的好久好久都没有再刷新这种感觉了……当我今天又一次坐在电脑前面,摸着熟悉的键盘,无聊的听起我最喜欢的那个水晶音乐,然后把你的照片翻出来……我的神经似乎突然静止了,我竟然好像感觉你就站在我的对面,看着我,和我说话……我望着照片中的你,不,是真实的你,那一瞬间,你真的就在我面前!我轻轻的叫你,可是你不回答……我这才清醒,实际上你离我是多么的遥远……顿时我的感觉又变成一个人一把把我推进了没有底的深渊里。这仿佛才是我第一次体会到什么叫做现实! 多可笑把。

    我终于开始哭,开始知道哭……我忽然问自己,你在我的心里到底是怎样一个位置,对于你来说,我是否也像你对我一样对你非常重要。我总是把你换作我来想,我总想知道你是不是也像我一样喜欢静静的坐在一个角落,耳边放着音乐,开始回忆我们之间曾经有过的一段段平凡的事情。可是不知道为什么,在自己的心里又常出现一个声音告诉自己,你没有……我不知道那是不是就是所谓的直觉,或者只是我在刻意的逃避自己不想听到的答案吧。

    别人也告诉过我,男孩和女孩心里想的事情是不一样的,男孩大部分是不会把多数的精力放在感情上,而是事业上。我理解,这我都理解。可我还是希望可以多得到你的问候,你的关心。不论是对于什么,把我当妹妹也好,朋友也好,或者就算是一个从来未真正认识的陌生人也好,我全都不在乎,我只要你的关心,哪怕是你装出来的,我也会告诉自己,这就够了。

    零点了,又是新的一天了……这说明什么呢?我曾经听过这样一句话:人从一出生就在和时间赛跑,一直跑,一直跑,跑到老,跑到死,跑到一无所有……真的是这样么?其实我以前也这么认为,可是现在我的想法似乎有了些转变。我不觉得人死了就一无所有了,会不会人死了,他的思想还继续的存活着?如果我现在是爱你的,那么会不会当我死后,这种内心的感觉依然保存在这个世界上?我还是想不太通,越想越多,越想越乱了。我更加的感觉到自己的渺小,微不足道。你说是吗?

    我总想比整个世界先知道答案,我真得太迫不及待了。我们将来的关系究竟会演变成什么?或许我们将永远都保持现在的状态,永远隔着一道网。我好糊涂……

    但我知道一件事情,我确定一件事情:我永远都不能失去你,这不能只是单纯的说我很爱你。你要知道,是你给了我第二次生命,是你让我觉得在一生快要结束的最后一刻,会有人想要挽留我……我的心好痛,莫名其妙的痛。

    你会理解我吗?你会理解我这样一个奇怪的女孩吗?努力一下好不好,我需要你……

    人不到伤痕累累,就不会懂得后悔。 我心底最后的一丝余热还在为你保存着,请别放走它,好么?我还没有伤痕累累,我还没有后悔,因为我认识了你……我不希望认识你对我来说真的是一种错误,我也相信不会。如果一颗泪珠从眼角流出来,那么它将永远流走,没有回头的余地。是你吗,是你正在缓缓的从我眼角中流走吗……

    有梦才有希望,有你才会有我永无休止的等待,我在等,永无休止的等!

                                                                                         小艾

 

http://www.websamba.com/angelforyou

今天早上醒得很早,碰见以前国内的女朋友了,她说她在玩天堂II内测,让我也去,天啊!我哪儿还有时间玩网游啊?她说她在里面还是叫棉棉,呵呵,我想起“骑士”里面兽族法师的搞笑形象了,人物根个小黄豆似的。

后来一起玩联众里面的拼图,我玩那个真弱智啊一点儿兴趣都没。然后想跟她一起打会儿升级,她没安装也不爱玩,最后想起来还是War III吧?结果人家N年不玩了,都是老得不能再老的版本了。唉!以前再默契的两个人,早已经格格不入,物非人非。想不感叹也不行啊?

天堂II

毛主席说过,一件事儿操一次蛋不难,难得是天天操蛋,有事儿操蛋,没事儿也操蛋,那才是最难最难最最难得啊!

说的就是爱情。

昨天傍晚,好像是LeftTemp那家中介公司打电话让我买safty boots说是帮我找到了晚上去Etobical的工作。靠!这么远有病啊?今天约了教练周一下午一点练车,我怎么这么笨啊?我姐才跟我说过让我约到周六上午,学完车正好去打工。我怎么还说周末没空啊?

JIMMY QI ZHOU

Address Here

Mississauga, ON, Canada

Jimmy_Qi@hotmail.com

 

 

Web Developer, Program Analyst

 

HIGHLIGHTS OF QUALIFICATION

 

·             Expert in OO analysis, design, programming and strong in Design pattern

·         More than 5 years practical experience in J2EE, C#, PERL, MQ Series, XML, STRUTS

·         Abounding experience in application servers, operating system, RDBMS (including DB2/UDB, Oracle, Sybase, SQL Server, MySQL)

·         Strong analytical and technical problem-solving skills to consider critically, evaluate situations

·         Ability to work independently or in a team environment, quick learner, efficient, flexible

 

TECHNICAL KNOWLEDGE AND COMPUTER SKILLS

 

Programming Languages And Toolkits

·         J2EE, EJB, Servlet/JSP, JavaBeans, STRUTS, ASP, ASP.NET, C#, PHP, PERL, CGI, XML, SAX, DOM, PL/SQL, HTML, DHTML, JAVA Script, CSS, COM+

·         JSDK 1.2/1.3/1.4, Microsoft .NET Framework SDK v1.X, JDBC, JAVA Mail, JIVE Forums 1.x/2.x, WebEx(WIP)

·         Borland JBuilder 8.0/9.0/X Enterprise, Microsoft Visual Studio .NET, Microsoft ASP.NET Web Matrix, IBM Visual Age for Java 4.0, Scioworks Camino Pro 3.1, XML Spy 5.0, Macromedia Dreamweaver 4.0/MX

 

Web / Application Server, Operating System And DataBase

·         BEA Weblogic 5.1/6.1/7.0/8.0, IBM WebSphere 4.0/5.0, Resin 2.1.4, Tomcat 4.x, iPlanet, JRun, Apache 1.3.x, IIS 5.0/6.0

·         SUN Solaris 7/8, DOS 6.2, Microsoft Windows 9x/NT/2000/XP, Red Hat Linux 7/8, Free BSD, Macintosh OS 9

·         Oracle 7.x/8i/9i, DB2 5.x/6.x/7.x, Sybase 10, Microsoft SQLServer 7.0/2000, MySQL 3.x/4.x, Software AG Tamino XML Database V2.2, Borland InterBase 5.x, JDBC, DB2 Connector, JDO, OLE DB, ODBC, ADO

 

Web Development And Technical Support

·         Involved in the design, development, testing, debuging, administration and maintenance of web applications

·         Provided technical advice, diagnosed and corrected computer, database, program and network-related problems

·         Good understanding and experience with load balancing, clustering, security and high availability

·         Wrote technical documentation such as requirement documents, design documents, tested store procedures, triggers, maintenanced document and user manuals

 

WORKING EXPERIENCE AND ACCOMPLISHMENTS

 

Apr/2004 – Jul/2004 Web Analyst

Add Value International Inc. Mississauga

PROJECT: collectivetender.com web applications

WEB SITE: www.collectivetender. com/ca

LANGUAGE/TOOLS: ASP.NET, C#, IIS 5.0, VStudio .NET, Web Matrix     DATABASE: SQL Server 2000

DESCRIPTION: What’s the project doing is the process by which the individual small volume but common procurement requirements of multiple customers, usually Cities, Municipalities, Government Agencies and Corporations, are aggregated into a single Large Tender Volume that is formally tendered subject to a single specification and tight contract terms.

RESPOSIBILITIES:

·Creation of object-oriented database layer and business layer modules

·C# and Aspx design and development, ASP to ASP.NET migration

 

Mar/2003 – Dec/2003     Software Analyst

China National Computer Software and Technology Service Corporation (ShangHai)

PROJECT: Integrated Management Information System of ShangHai Courts

WEB SITE: www.Hshfy.sh.cn

LANGUAGE/TOOLS: PERL/J2EE, MQ, IBM HTTPServer/WebSphere DATABASE: Oracle/Notes Domino

DESCRIPTION: The system was made up by pieces of function module, it realized duplicate-way datum and database copies transmit. Use the synchronous distributed database to adopt, share and exchange the information among the tertiary courts

RESPOSIBILITIES:

·Developed web applications in a PERL/Apache/MOD_PERL environment

·Designed and developed using J2EE technology including EJB, Servlets/JSP, JavaBeans, XML

·Set up development and test environment on SUN Solaris 7/Windows 2000

·Reviewing developer’s code, solving technical problems, software refactoring/optimization

·Use MQ Series to send real-time information to cooperative partner

 

Jun/2001 – Mar/2003      JAVA Developer

TCL IT (GROUP) ejiajia Net Technology Co., LTD

PROJECT: TCL OpenEdu Platform 1.0(won the best award of using in “2002 China informationization make an inventory best model” by CCID and won the “outstanding teleeducation platform award” by Beijing information association)

WEB SITE: www.TCLedu.com, www.HuangGao.net

LANGUAGE/TOOLS: J2EE, XML,WebEX, WebLogic     DATABASE: Oracle8i, Software AG Tamino V2.2

DESCRIPTION: TCL OpenEdu Platform1.0 can apply to the whole educational trade. It realized true inter dynamic teaching practice environment, and broke the gap of the distance. It incorporated education, management, exchange, commercial operation into an organic whole network educational platform.

RESPOSIBILITIES:

·Designed and developed frameworks in the three-tier architecture

·Designed and developed EJB and Java Beans to manipulate the data and manage distributed transactions

·I was responsible for the compiling of module design reports and testing of development software, as well as designing of testing methods and compiling of testing reports.

 

Aug/1999 – Jun/2001      WEB Developer

HelpTrip Network Technology Co., LTD

 

EDUCATION

 

Feb/2004 -  Jul/2004       ESL/Work Co-op program  Dufferin-Peel Adult Learning Centre -Meadowvale

Feb/2002 – Mar/2002     Certificate of Microsoft           Microsoft China(BeiJing)

                                      .NET Programmer

Sep/1998 – Jul/1999       Network Technic                Anhui University

Sep/1995 – Jul/1998       Computer Science             Anhui Institute of Architecture Industry

 

REFERENCES AVAILABLE ON REQUEST