在写了一段令人恶心的英文之后，我决定还是用中文来写作这样的题目。

你们应该知道EO的意思了吧。就是大名鼎鼎的经济观察报，它本来是一份报纸，一家公司，可是我却更愿意认为它是一场宴会。在我第二次踏入那座白色的小楼的时候，我就是这么认为的。

第二次的造访比第一次轻松。可是我还是紧张的坐过了站。好容易在约定的时间之前走进办公室，却还是发现编辑大人已经离开办公室去开选题会。有些郁闷的从闫婷那里要了几份报纸，坐在沙发上看。
这一次不再那么安静了。办公室里不时的走来不同的人。其中一个穿着红色的切·格瓦拉的T恤衫，长发微卷，脸色白净，就是李翔，他在上个星期的EO上写了一篇很长的关于萨特的文章。萨特我就不用介绍，他不是这里的人。过了一会儿，在我看完了几版报纸之后，张帆也回来了——方军貌似还在他之前，闫婷在这期间不停的向我介绍让我感到好奇的人。张帆看到我，微微点了头，笑一下，过来和我说话。
这里必须要介绍那个一起在实习的清华的女生，她已经大四了，读新闻，有个在北大读计算机的博士男朋友。她爱说爱聊，很快我们就熟起来。她是我见过的最漂亮的清华女生。

快到中午的时候，办公间里变得热闹非凡。长头发的、拖着一双球鞋的许知远，他居然还记得去年冬天我托一个朋友索要他的签名的事情；戴着黑框眼镜的叶滢，在听到我告诉她说很多朋友都很羡慕她飞来飞去采访的生活之后，开玩笑说要给我签名；如果我没记混，黄一琨是一个白皙的男生，而黄继新则是一个圆脸的小眼睛帅哥；周亮是漂亮的带我们去吃饭的姐姐。这些人我努力的记住，就像在红宝书上圈记单词。
还有一个人是评论部的头儿，皮肤黑黑的，拿一支烟，说话很大声，动作热情奔放，似乎是一个舞蹈家。这个人叫做于威，是一个艺术气息很浓的中年女子。她据称刚刚从德国回来，带来据称很好吃的巧克力，中午很多人去给她接风。她还幽默地说她在欧洲的六十几天里光顾了103家咖啡店。我回去的路上还在想她怎么会记得这样一个数字。
正是以她为代表，办公间里的人忙于和其他人交换眼神、玩笑和想法。他们热情地交谈、拥抱和大声笑，仿佛是多年不见的老友。这难道还不像个宴会吗？

——尽管EO的食堂的饭菜还不如学校的好吃。

“既然你是学金融的，为什么又对媒体感兴趣。”在经济观察报评论部宽敞的办公间里，橙红色的松软的大沙发上，观察家版的责编张帆这样抛出他的问题。我一再发觉，我陷入了某种面试的困境之中，尽管这家一度占据我全部心灵的报纸的文化并非那么压抑——更何况这根本算不上一次面试，没有令人尴尬的提问，没有排队等候的竞争者……但是我却难以说明，一个金融系的学生是如何放弃那些令路人称羡的机会，而选择了一个陌生的行业，难道仅仅因为橙色新闻纸，抑或大事件、大人物和大社会责任感？

就这样，第一次的交谈令人局促不安。当我微笑着走出那件优雅的办公室的时候，心里却感到深深的失落。一直以来，我的疑虑被不幸的证实：面对这个日益复杂和快速的社会，我还显得几乎毫无准备，所谓的职业规划几乎只是个人的臆想和猜度。如果说现实主义正在我的头脑中日益增长，那么2005年夏天的这次经历则标志着某个里程碑。

闫婷是一个如此友善的人。可是即便如此，她的放松疗法也依然没有起到很大的作用，我在那个橙红色沙发几乎集中了我一年以来全部的窘迫。她问我是否有计划做一些喜欢的话题，我突然间丧失了记忆力，那些令人激动不已的名词突然间闪烁起来，我只是看不清。看不清我面前的通往这座漂亮的白色写字楼的路径。

在回去的801路公共汽车上，我看到手机屏幕上面显示出数条来自朋友的问候，“实习如何啊？”轻松的问题，我却无力还击。我越发怀疑自己一贯的判断力和对于未来的估计。我是否值得放弃可能的一切而踏上一条陌生的冒险之旅。一直以来，我都是一个保守主义者，不喜欢冒险，这是我父辈的遗产，难道它们已经不在了吗？

令人感到更加沮丧的是我要独自度过接下来的两天。朋友们都在郊外玩。听说他们住在一幢豪华的别墅里，和私人游泳池、KTV、健身房在一起。这是一个适合郊游的日子，我却在太阳底下快速的行走、出汗、被紫外线辐射得像一头蒙上眼睛的驴子。

所幸的是，我似乎还存有少许的思考能力，愿意把整件事情想一想。身上的正装是否适合那个大沙发，我拘谨的笑容是否有点多余的名利场气息，那些友善的记者和编辑，其中很多人的名字都是长期以来熟知的，是否不那么遥远和高不可攀——是否我自己过份的疏远了自己和经济观察报的距离，就像一个观察员而非参与者。

观察员因其观察而改变了观察对象的状态，从而是一个参与者。他只是不知道自己的观察已经是一种深度但是不那么明显的参与。尽管坐在角落，却赢得了少许友善的目光。至少他像一个成年人，彬彬有礼的走进去，彬彬有礼的走出来——而非被驱逐。

观察员有的时候并不知道他那深刻的傲慢已经悄无声息的沾染了周身的衣着，让自己变得无法进一步参与环境的演进。每一个学生走出校园的时候都会被告诫的事情是你没什么了不起，但是当他们用种种形式自我包装之后，这一切说教就全都失效。他们的失望更多的来自于他们对现实的恐惧，没有人愿意从镜子中读到一幅平庸的面容，尽管现实如此，现实如此。

有些教训你只是不能跳过。因为它们过于依赖于痛苦和折磨对于心灵的考验，还有时间的历练。当你不再因为拘谨而痛失机遇，不再因为失礼而得罪上司，不再因为粗心而搞乱计划，不再因为鲁莽而破坏大局，你才获得真正的成长——在身高已经几乎停止增长之后的数年里，伤疤会变成新的增长点。

与此同时，你会越发忠实于你的选择，并不再嘲笑当初的犹豫。但是在现在，选择题总是难于下笔，并将长期占据你的思维空间，连接现实与未来。

事情往往如此。

Maths problems hardly treat me well. They expose in some confusing simplicity and refuse to be interpreted.
After calculus and linear algebra, we have mathematical statistics this semester. Statistics is even more pratically useful. In this science, hypothesis testing  outstands. As for the real world, we have limited time, money and data, but hypothesis testing gives a non-mathematical mathematical way to prove the rightness of the human guess.

And the biggest guess about human should be that who am I.

Given this question, most people would find themselves lost in infinite thinking, about some huge things that they may have never thought before and will never in the future. Some psychologists try to make some progress on this issues. They invent tests about the characteristics of human beings. One of these inventions is the MBTI test.
MBTI, Myers-Briggs Type Indicator, among thousands of its counterparts is said to be the most popular and trusted. According to wikipedia.org,
"The types the MBTI tests for, known as dichotomies, are extraversion, introversion, sensing, intuition, thinking, feeling, judging and perceiving. Participants are given one of 16 four-letter acronyms, such as ESTJ or INFP, indicating what they prefer. The term best-fit types refers to the ethical code that facilitators are required to follow. It states that the person taking the test is always the best judge of what their preferences are, and the test itself should never be used to make this decision."

Well, you may have not yet taken this famous test, but my guess is that you must have some experiences in taking such things. How do you evaluate the accuracy of a type test? You might give such remarks like "Yes, that’s exactly me!" or "Certainly not me." or " Partly true." Do you really want to test your type or more willingly test the test itself?

Even though we hardly know who we are, we are actually who we are being in the moment. No matter how things change and how they make difference on us, it is we ourselves who assume which type we belong to. It looks like that we are prejudged to be some ENTPs or ISFJs. (ENTP and ISFJ are two types indicated by MBTI test.) The prejustice we hold is the hypothesis lurking under everyone’s skin and bones.
I have done 2 versions of MBTI test till now and they tell two different answers. Though I have suggested this test to some of my friends, I started to doubt it. It is not a maths problem, but I was incurably involved. Because I want more participants to test the test, through the hypothesis testing approach.

fter I got the summer job opportunity, I continued to focus on job. Yes, job is the biggest news all these days in the world. In light of China’s incurable population, we have to face such a huge consumer market (sounds exciting?) and a sharply tiny employment market.

You can easily find the college students reading books about interviewing skills and career plan. They are no longer scholar-like as their professors used to be. They are fans of IBM, Microsoft, Morgan Stanley and McKinsey. And they have learned to do comparative study on HR strategies of these Fortune 500. What they expected behind is simply a respectful white collar and a rocket-up salary.

However, I find some notions which have been hardly found by others. Most guys talk about career things, for example: salary, training and welfare. But do they consider culture thing? More directly speaking, every company has some cultural background in which they develope. In the promotion/recruitment conference, the HR manager consumes a big sum of time to sell the culture. It might be true that the applicants remember every little word from that mouth, but unfortunately the knowledge or the concept of corporate culture would hardly go.

Microsoft and Morgan Stanley have the same short name: MS. The two MSs distinguished from each other strongly in various aspects. For at least one thing, Microsoft lays in the western coast and Morgan Stanley in the east. The places tell the truth: it is the difference between jeans and suits.

I enjoy wearing suit and tie, because they polish your look. But that is only the surface. It is the management model that matters.

Sometimes the culture issues accompany with the size. They all want to go big. Well, big firms as a start for your career should be a nice move, but you must see through the surface.

One of my favourite blogger Seth posted an entry titled “Small is the new big” Here is what he wrote,

"Small is the new big because small gives you the flexibility to change the business model when your competition changes theirs.
…
Small is the new big only when the person running the small thinks big.
Don’t wait. Get small. Think big."

News don’t come to your house everyday, but you must be well prepared when they do.

Early at seven o’clock this morning (it is early for me and most of the college students in China), I got up to check the email. The network was pretty fast and there was one in the box. I didn’t expect it to be Ms. Yu, the smart lady who helped me find the summer job, but it turned out to be her. She wrote to me to give me the phone number of Mr. Fang, my future boss of the summer job, an experienced editor of Economic Observer. So excited the mail made me! I have been dreaming about going to EO for all these years. And it came true. How can I believe it!

In receipt of good news, I calmed myself down quickly, to appear more reasonable and gentle. When I went to breakfast, this news was brought to a friend of mine softly. He was even excited than I did. (But you know that I was pretending to be cool.) He is a good man. And he is still on his way to success.

Mr. Fang on the phone was a kind gentleman. The voice were warm enough to disperse my nervousness. He gave great tolerance to my time and the talk was another success.

At noon, I saw Flypig online and told him I got the same summer job as he did. He was worrying about why Mr. Fang didn’t answer his call. We stay in different corners of a small world.

And sometimes good news is no news.

I’ve downloaded the new album by Coldplay this morning. It is said to be leaked to the internet on 28th, May, a week before official release. I spotted the download link in an small site and was shocked. I ran to phone all my friends I could imagine, only repeating one word: Coldplay.
Chris is no liar. He’s made beautiful music, with his fellows and drums and guitars and their ethusiasm. He claimed to NME.com that Coldplay had enough good songs to astonish the ear of the world. And now it’s proved to be absolutely truly true.
Someone said the name of this album is mediocre. But the first track is totally a surprise: Square One. In some unknown sounds, it starts to twirl in my ear. And so it goes and disappears into the second and the third…
My fav. tracks are White Shadow and Talk. The hidden track Till Kingdom Come in acoustic style is purely good for those technical listeners.
It is a cold summer beginning with this album. I can’t even imagine how it goes with Chris’s voice over my head when I read, type and snooze. At least, cold things are hot in summers for BJers, due to the reason that they make you safe in the sun.

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Weeks ago, I saw the phrase “turn your name to a verb”. Without a second look, I set it as my tagline of IM. Some guys asked me, “what’s it?” Yes, the expression might be too simple to make sense for someone, but it was adequately rich in meaning and equally complicated to implement for me.

If your name is turned to a verb, you are the first-aid and the last resort in your group. Therefore you are wanted everywhere and everyone calls your name. In the film “Mahattan Maid”, Jennifer Lopez whispered to her son, “Why not google it?” Here Google, the name of Google.com Inc., is used as a verb. Thousands of millions of people call the name, thus making it a verb.

Verbs talk, and they affect nouns. Verbs act, and they interact with nouns. Verbs are busy, and they only do valuable business. With respect to all the above, to turn my name to a verb is totally not make it famous, but to furnish it with usefulness and uniqueness.

I am not a how-to writer. Leave how-to issues to those experts. Have a nice dream.

Place de Cliché International

很久没有写过blog了，前段时间在忙社团，按照我的理解，也是一种社会软件。

这几天在调试服务器，由于Linux知识很欠缺，所以一直都很累。千万次的试验终于用Ruby on Rails架设了基于Instiki的Wiki系统，希望能够作为社团内部的项目管理软件使用。

然后我兴奋的把我的成果告诉同事，一个一个的演示基本的操作。今天上午还在认真修改样式表和布局。把精心制作的logo与slogan放上去。并且为一个文件上传的功能浪费了两个多小时。

我在等待社团能够因为这个wiki而改变管理混乱的局面。可是，除了我之外，几乎没有人真正愿意使用这个系统，他们习惯于电子邮件+短信+电话+开会的模式。面对新的连线时代，表情漠然。
当项目经理对我说要提交预算案的时候，我坚持要他用wiki的形式传给我，可是，他仍然没有这么做。对于那些女生而言，要她们也使用如此高科技的事物，难度可能更大。

wikipedia对于wiki如此描述：

使用方便

• 维护快捷：快速创建、存取、更改超文本页面（这也是为什么叫作 "wiki wiki" 的原因）。
• 格式简单：用简单的格式标记来取代 HTML 的复杂格式标记。（类似所见即所得的风格）
• 链接方便：通过简单标记，直接以关键字名来建立链接（页面、外部连接、图像等）。
• 命名平易：关键字名就是页面名称，并且被置于一个单层、平直的名空间中。

自组织

• 自组织的：同页面的内容一样，整个超文本的组织结构也是可以修改、演化的。
• 可汇聚的：系统内多个内容重复的页面可以被汇聚于其中的某个，相应的链接结构也随之改变。

可增长

• 可增长：页面的链接目标可以尚未存在，通过点击链接，我们可以创建这些页面，从而使系统得到增长。
• 修订历史：记录页面的修订历史，页面的各个版本都可以被获取。

开放性

• 开放的：社群的成员可以任意创建、修改、删除页面。
• 可观察：系统内页面的变动可以被访问者观察到。

如果wiki缺乏使用者，就是一片死网。在经济学中，我们用网络效应来描述这一现象。并且用这个理论成功的解释了微软的垄断与中国电信业的格局。
可是现在我们却碰到了相反的案例，就发生在我们身上。

记不清在什么地方，看到一句话：we are not that high tech.

尽管我并不能确认人是否本能抗拒科技，但是我们却一直在试图走神、逃课、贪玩……以此对抗科技的俘虏。当我在lifehack.org看到可以用A4纸七折八折做成一个小本子的时候，购买笔记本的计划又一次被无限期推延。显然，自然主义绝非对此的最佳解释。

我只跟踪了一小段时间。

今天上午看到这样一条消息，在YAHOO NEWS BETA的MOST POPULAR。

• Chinese Men Measure Up to Others Below the Belt Reuters – Thu Apr 21,11:13 AM ET

是什么意思就不说了。反正是讨论我们中国男人的某些能力。
当时看到是在MOST POP的第四名的位置。下午看就到了第一。变成了HIGHLIGHT。仅是投票评论文章的人就有500多。

不知道这个MOST POPULAR会不会继续这个趋势。难道新闻就只停留在这个档次吗？