2007年06月06日

Sebol:

  First,thank you for telling me so much about why the American people want to keep guns.You know I am so curious about that.But I still think Americans should change their minds bebause the world has changed.People can love guns,but life is the most important thing to people,isn’t it?

  I’ve visited your blog and I enjoyed reading your articals which said something about me.But the one that most impressed me is about my hatred of japan.I think I should explain.Indeed,I like Japanese literature, culture, cartoons, food and sceneries very much.My hatred of it is their attitudes toward their crimes in the second world war.You are not Chinese,you can’t understand the pain of LOSING SO MUCH Fellow countrymen in the war.The Japanese army massacred chinese people everywhere.Thery killed more than 300000 ordinary people in Nanjing.

  The Chinese nation is an old and vast nation who could be tolerant of the past if the Japanese had right and human nature’s attitudes toward their brutal crimes which they have done to the other Asian counties.You know ,the Prime Minister of Germany once kneeled down in front of  the Jewish’s graves to repent their crimes.

  But the Japanese goverment never had the right and human natures’ attitudes like the German.They even don’t admit they have killed so many ordinary people in the war.They do not think they were wrong in that war.And they write these wrong ideas into their history books to teach their children.Their Prime Minister even worship the criminals who did COUNTLESS BRUTAL CRIMES to the other Asian countries as gods.

  So how can we accept this????How can we forgive them????

  But I still have to clear that in your blog you mentioned I once said"Now we improved,so they should pay."As a matter of fact,my ture meaning is"Now we impoved,if they want to  invade us again,they will pay"

  We chinese people definetely  love peace,no one want their friends and relatives to bleed or lose their lives in a war.but if someone want to invade us.Every Chinese dare not to tribute their lives.That’s the truth.

  Japan is an islands country which is short of  resource and enegy.From their literature and culture, I can feel a strong sense of crisis,loneliness and despair .They worrid one day they will be swallowed up by the ocean or they will use out their resource.So they never cut down their own wood,they input wood from the other countries all the time.They think they are the most excellent nation,so they do not want to accept their fate.They are trying every effort for survivig.

  To be frank,I also appreciate their spirit. But the key point is that they do not care about the other people and countries.They are so narrow that they think only Japanese people should survive,which is absolutely wrong.They don’t know that in fact every person on the earth share the same fate. 

  We live in the same  planet and share the same world.I don’t think which nation is better,and which is worse.

  No one has the right to hurt the others for their own survive.We should respect each other.Like us,we are from different countries,but we can have many commons and communicate freely.

   So the most important thing I think is we should be extensive,then we will respect the others and we can  come together to build a better world.

   Haha,I’ve said so much about Japan,tell me bout your thought and feelings about this.

  Alice told me Adams and she will share the first half of their lives in Denmak and  the latter half in China.I think it’s a wise and great idea,and you?

  Everything goes well!

Michael

Michael,
 
Glad to hear from you, man.  I thought you might have fallen off the face of the earth!  Not that I am one to talk, as it has taken me a while to get back to you too.  I have been very busy this past month.  I left Sweden and came home to Minneapolis.  But two days later I drove down to Chicago to visit my friends.  I was there for a week doing many, many things, then I drove back to Minneapolis, quickly packed my things and flew off to Alaska.  That is where I am now.  I am working this summer for a law firm in Alaska.
 
Yes, I definetly heard about the killer in America.  He shot many people at the university, Virgina Tech.  I know how you feel.  Many people outside America can’t understand America’s love of guns.  I don’t know if I fully do either.  I personally don’t own a gun, and have never fired a gun.  (A very good film about America’s love of guns is "Bowling for Columbine", by Michael Moore.  You should see it).  One of the problems is that when America was made into a counrty back in 1789 or so, having guns was seen as very important to keep the governement from being corrupt.  America had just escaped from one bad government, England.  To do that it needed guns.  It didn’t want to make a new government, have it turn bad (which it very well might have), and then have no means of freeing themselves.
 
Today, of course, this is not so much a concern.  But the law in the Constitution protecting gun rights is still there, and enough people don’t want it to change.  They think that having a gun is the best way to protect yourself against a criminal.  So we must continue to make small changes, banning certain types of guns and in certain types of places.  The best hope is eventually for American society to change enough to see that cerain weapons (like automatic guns) should be banned totally from the population. 
 
How have you been?  What are your plans for the summer?  Is Alice going to live in Denmark forever?  What do you think of that?
 
Look forward to hearing from you,
 
-Sebastian-
2006年03月27日

nothing belongs to be

there must be one day

i’ll lose everything of mine

actually  

i ‘ve never gotten anything

all the things around me

which i thought were mine

are just  illusion

just my own stupid imagination

when i have to face the reality

i find that

life hurts

everything of my world is not true

but false

include

my life my body my thought and my spirit

my passion my feeling  my desire and my love

as it turns out

that

nothing belongs to me

in the past   

now

in the future

yes

you are right

that is my poetic justice

but

it’s not anyone else bussiness

i’ll go with myself

maybe happy

maybe sad

but it’s not important

because

everything

 is

nothing

originally

i have nothing

at all

2006年03月01日

  I haven’t used this language for a long time because of the evironment

  Today I sit on my desk  in front of the computer,have nothing to do,so I want to practise it.Though the artical will be bad,I still decide to write to kill some unhappy time.

  Last evening I found a book called wild swan,which was baned by the Chinese goverment ,who also baned 2 hollywood movies, one of which is acted by a very famous Chinese actress Zhangziyi who acted as a Japanese girl in it.

  It’s really funny,though the goverment did that.more people will buy the vcds and dvds in secret, or download them from the internet.

  We Chinese always work  like that,do one thing but say the other thing.  

  They called to hate Japanese,boycotte Japanese things,in fact they got profit from it,but let the others fight against it

  They told the teenegers the Japanese are the worst in the world,everything of  them is aggressive.And their culture is the most dangerous thing,you must say no to all things relate to Japanese.

   This  is the most stupid idea. As a matter of fact,culture itself is not aggressive at all.Japanese learn from China since Tang dynasty,from their clothes to words,from their food to tradition,just because China is a developed country then,learn from the west from the 19 century just because they were developed countries then.So now their culture is a nice combination of western and oriental culture so now they are developed.

  we should learn the good part of everyting,then we may improve,if we are still  controlled by the stupid arrogance,the future will still be dark.

  As for me, I will try my best to lead my students to the right way.

  But who can light China’s future?

2005年12月21日

  Today I saw the blue eyes again,which really makes my heart soft.I remember last year when I did some sports,she was holding my coat.She really caught my heart,my feelings because I felt I was held by her during that moment.

  She said she alway traped by some unnamed feelings.She sometimes maybe awaked by the painful feelings,and then she will hold the pillow till the morning.She said that in words,but I am very easily touched by this kind of words since I am a sensitive guy.

  I also memorize a lovely little girl who also told me in the letter that she was lively,happy,active in front of the others,but when the night down,she would see a extremely blue girl in the mirror.I can feel the fragrant heart of her,I really wanna protect her.

  We knew each other 4 years before,I  held her hand while crossing the road,we drank beer together though she was just a teenager who is the top student in her class .I read the fragrance in the pretty deep blue eyes, I can feel  it,I really wanna protect her.

  I don’t know why I was so impressed by them,I can’t forget their beautifull and blue eyes.I can even lose myself  when I think about them,and I know they are excellent,smart and sensitive,they are the best in my world. I think I love them indeed,but this love will gone with my life and in my heart.

  God bless them,for  me and for the world.

2005年12月12日

  I can’t  remember when I fell in love with English.Maybe 3 years ago,after I met my friend Adam,before that,I treat foreigners as pets,just like most Chinese people do.I found the way the native speak is totally different from what I had learnt in the books before.English won’t be a boring tough thing anymore,and English sounded really like music,I liked the pronunciation,I liked the fluent way to talk with it,and I also be attracted by the sophisticated logic in it.

  From then on,I went to the English corner everyweek,I was regarded as English major all the time but in fact I study Chinese.I was sure I could speak better English than most English major in the university.And in the course of the president of the English college,she proved my thoughts.A praise from authority can always give people courage and confidence,I believed  I did have talents in English since then.So I downloaded mant English songs,listened as many English tapes as I want .I trid to find English books in the library eagerly.Half a year later,I found I improved.

  I study English for nothing but my interest.The language is really fantastic for me.I passed the band 4 and band 6 very easilly,and now I am on the run to get the English bachelor degree.To be frank,it is not my destination of course,I just want to make myself familiar with this language forever,and that is also why I write this artical today.

2005年06月26日

  I’ve wasted one year again.During last year,I failed all the examination I took part in,It was my poetic justice because I  was too lazy to study,to read books,and even to plan my future till now everything has changed.

  I suddendly find that in fact life is so tough .I should’t be satisfied with the situation now.I have to pusue more, to experience more.Life is short,youth won’t be back,I should get what I could when I still has the capability.

 As I know there is not much youth in my hand now ,I will run out of the life ,which is lack of passion power and happiness.The most needed thing for me is perseverance,I believe myself and I definitely believe things will change in one year